But, quickly, I guess I'll squeak a tiny smidgen about my own experience with this obnoxiously red and pink holiday. Before I was 16, I absolutely hated it with a passion. So many girls were getting candies and flowers because they were pretty and popular, and I was neither (well, I wasn't the right kind of popular. I was known for my excellent grades, being the "quiet girl," and being well-behaved). Every year, I was painfully reminded that I was an - ahem - undesirable.
However, when I was 16 (something must have happened to change me from an ugly duckling to a swan), I received my first gifts from a guy (who became my first boyfriend soon after), and, every year after that, I've always had a boyfriend, or boyfriend-like figure(s), who bought me chocolate or roses. (One actually got me Super Smash Bros. Melee. The following year, I received an orange authentic - as in not made by a third party - Nintendo Gamecube Controller.) Still, nothing compares to this year. My love and I resolved to just stay in and cuddle... and play video games, which I think is far more romantic than going out to eat. So, we bought each other chocolates, bought the Special Edition Battle Royale Box Set (EFF YEAH!!), and just enjoyed each other's company all weekend.
Yep, that's us. :)
Now! On to the poems. The first one shall be Poe's Annabel Lee.
It was many and many a year ago, In a kingdom by the sea, That a maiden there lived whom you may know By the name of ANNABEL LEE; And this maiden she lived with no other thought Than to love and be loved by me. I was a child and she was a child, In this kingdom by the sea; But we loved with a love that was more than love- I and my Annabel Lee; With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven Coveted her and me. And this was the reason that, long ago, In this kingdom by the sea, A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling My beautiful Annabel Lee; So that her highborn kinsman came And bore her away from me, To shut her up in a sepulchre In this kingdom by the sea. The angels, not half so happy in heaven, Went envying her and me- Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know, In this kingdom by the sea) That the wind came out of the cloud by night, Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee. But our love it was stronger by far than the love Of those who were older than we- Of many far wiser than we- And neither the angels in heaven above, Nor the demons down under the sea, Can ever dissever my soul from the soul Of the beautiful Annabel Lee. For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams Of the beautiful Annabel Lee; And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes Of the beautiful Annabel Lee; And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side Of my darling- my darling- my life and my bride, In the sepulchre there by the sea, In her tomb by the sounding sea. This is one of my favorites because 1, I enjoy the works of Poe anyway. 2, I love the imagery it paints in my head 3, Call me whatever you like for this, I do love the way it rhymes. (No one rhymes their poetry anymore these days...) Lastly, I like the atmosphere. It shines off to me as being dreamy, haunting, and melancholy. The ending is disturbing, yes, but I like that. I also like the essence here of "undying love." Even though the speaker's darling Annabel Lee has died, he still loves her just as strongly as he had before. True love, if you will. Next, we have Porphyria's Lover by Robert Browning. The rain set early in to-night, The sullen wind was soon awake, It tore the elm-tops down for spite, And did its worst to vex the lake: I listened with heart fit to break. When glided in Porphyria; straight She shut the cold out and the storm, And kneeled and made the cheerless grate Blaze up, and all the cottage warm; Which done, she rose, and from her form Withdrew the dripping cloak and shawl, And laid her soiled gloves by, untied Her hat and let the damp hair fall, And, last, she sat down by my side And called me. When no voice replied, She put my arm about her waist, And made her smooth white shoulder bare, And all her yellow hair displaced, And, stooping, made my cheek lie there, And spread, o'er all, her yellow hair, Murmuring how she loved me---she Too weak, for all her heart's endeavour, To set its struggling passion free From pride, and vainer ties dissever, And give herself to me for ever. But passion sometimes would prevail, Nor could to-night's gay feast restrain A sudden thought of one so pale For love of her, and all in vain: So, she was come through wind and rain. Be sure I looked up at her eyes Happy and proud; at last I knew Porphyria worshipped me; surprise Made my heart swell, and still it grew While I debated what to do. That moment she was mine, mine, fair, Perfectly pure and good: I found A thing to do, and all her hair In one long yellow string I wound Three times her little throat around, And strangled her. No pain felt she; I am quite sure she felt no pain. As a shut bud that holds a bee, I warily oped her lids: again Laughed the blue eyes without a stain. And I untightened next the tress About her neck; her cheek once more Blushed bright beneath my burning kiss: I propped her head up as before, Only, this time my shoulder bore Her head, which droops upon it still: The smiling rosy little head, So glad it has its utmost will, That all it scorned at once is fled, And I, its love, am gained instead! Porphyria's love: she guessed not how Her darling one wish would be heard. And thus we sit together now, And all night long we have not stirred, And yet God has not said a word! Now, this one's a tad more complex, wouldn't you agree? In comes sweet, little Porphyria from a "gay feast." Evidently, she comes from a wealthy family and cannot - according to the speaker - completely give herself to him because her pride prevents her from becoming involved with someone of lower social status. Still, passion does indeed prevail at times - as the speaker says. This is one of those times. Now, it must be pretty frustrating to be in love with someone who shies away from you just slightly because of meaningless little social divisions. So, one might understand how happy the speaker becomes when he looks into her eyes and reads her "true feelings" (More than once in this poem, the speaker claims to know how Porphyria feels.), interpreting them as "worship," or, completely giving herself to him, finally. Immediately, he thinks of a way to preserve that moment. (After all, she might've changed her mind some day.) The speaker strangles the poor girl to death with her own hair, kisses her, and props her up on his shoulder. You know, I'm not sure how the speaker really felt about her - perhaps he truly did love her and it was mental illness that drove him to murder. The thing I'm fairly certain of is that deep-down, passed the shallow divisions of social class, Porphyria loved him dearly and unconditionally. Why else didn't she scream or struggle? Lastly, we have another by Robert Browning. My Last Duchess.
|
No comments:
Post a Comment